i'm so sick of feeling trapped in my house. my broken home has affected i think, ever relationshp i have. granted i don't have that many friends, but everyone of them has told another person how miseralbe i look and unhappy i am. which is true, but like damn, does no one know what it's like to be upset or disappointed in yourself. does anyone know how to make anyone you love feel better. i guess i don't know what love is because no one has shown me any, except for my boyfriend who is now beginning to lose his patience with me. i have no life. i dropped out of school and have been trying to get a job but no one will hire me because i am a nervous wreck everytime i leave me house. which in turn makes me pissed, which leades to sadness and self loathing. everyone just freezes and no one does anything but sit there with a stupid look in there face like i might explode and any second which really makes me want to. the only things i love are my two doggies who are always there when i need them most. it must hate my family seeing me miserable with them but happy with my dogs. i guess i'll be fine as long as i have them.